I’ve been busy today… we’re having my mother in law here for Easter so imagine…! I feel like the girl in the commercial of Pier1mports… ha ha! There’s still lots to do, especially going for groceries and other things for the house, but that will be tomorrow very early. I’m trying to make myself as busy as I can so I don’t think about my health problems too often. I even made my first collaboration for the Expressions ring.

Now I’m just reading my posts. I’ve discovered that writting and posting online is such a great therapy for me and I’m even improving my English Someday I will start a blog in Spanish, maybe…

I’m happy… just happy! Went to see if someone had signed my guestbook and actually found a message from a long lost friend!! I had lost track of her, but she was the one who found me. I just felt like sharing Going to send her an e-mail now.

Well, this morning it seemed like it was going to be a rainy boring day. I was kind of gloomy because I had to go alone downtown for my blood tests… it was windy and dark, but I didn’t change my mind and took the metro. Then it turned to be a more than OK day… I didn’t care about waiting for an hour to get my blood samples taken, I just sat there and watched people and had a good time looking at how nice the man on the Information desk was He sure brightened up my day with his nice way to treat people… and he even spoke Spanish to someone!! When he said “Buenos d�as, c�mo est�?” I was happy and just smiled to him (I didn’t say I spoke Spanish too, though…)

After the hospital I decided to go for a walk in Montr�al; it didn’t really matter it was raining… I took my umbrella and covered myself and had fun! Took the metro again and ended up walking on Ste. Catherine Street, stopped for a cup of coffee and something to eat at La Brul�rie St. Denis and then headed for Chapters and spoiled myself with the two books I wanted: The Hundred Secret Senses (by Amy Tan) and Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone (by J.K. Rowling… everybody knows that!). If I had more money I think I would’ve bought another book… I’m a book addict!

After my Chapters adventure, I just walked around the stores and did some window shopping… lol! Oh well, I bought a roll film for Monday because we’re going with some friends to La Cabane � Sucre (Maple Syrup factory… or how do you call that in English?). After all this, of course I was tired, so just took the metro and went to the train station, bought pastries for hubby and came home

After all… life is not that bad! it’s rainy, cloudy and dark, but I feel good!

It’s funny how your worries and priorities change from a second to another. It’s like my weight problem doesn’t matter right now and I want to be focused only in the tumor thing; however it’s all the same problem… My Lazy Thyroids. I knew I had this Prolactinoma thingy in my head… and I knew it was a MICRO… I never thought it was actually going to grow because that rarely happens; but now I have a MACRO that I have to take care of. The Dr. wast not certainly nice when telling me those things, but it’s better straight and forward… otherwise I wouldn’t have taken action. I guess I just long for my warm and caring Dr. back in Colombia.

I have taken an appointment with an Ophtalmologist at the hospital in Montr�al, to check how’s my visual field for this tumor is putting pressure on my Optic Chiasma and that seems to be not good at all. If my visual field is impaired somehow the Dr. will have to do something fast. I hope medication will be enough and that I won’t have to go under surgery for that. For me, the inside of the head is a sealed unit and once it’s touched… you never know.

This makes me so worried… but I have faith and with the help of modern science I will get well. Tomorrow I’ll go for blood tests and I’m going alone, which is a big step because I don’t like to go out alone. Yes, it is a big step for me… and a new beginning!

I want this book for a start; then we can continue with the rest.

In a less worried mood now… I’ve been educating myself for the last few hours regarding this Pituitary Tumor thing. I was informed about a micro-tumor, not a macro! I didn’t know the darn thing was going to grow inside me; but as I said, it’s my fault… I’ve been neglecting myself too much during the last year. But God rings the bell in special ways and this time I have to open that door that takes me to health. BTW, Thanks Jill for your good wishes!

So, I’ve been reading… and these tumors seem to respond well to treatment, so I promise right here, right now, that I will do anything that is in my hands to take care of myself; I will follow the Dr.’s advice, I will be a good girl and take my medications and go to control when I’m suppossed to. I just wish my mom were here with me… her faith helps me a lot through bad moments. But she’s in my heart and after I talked to her on the phone today I felt better. Oh! the magic words of a mother can’t be compared to anything else…

Well, I think that’s it… from now on you can call me Sweet Poppy, LOL!

Buenas noches!

I went to the Dr. today… it was such a beautiful, sunny and warm day… I took the train with my husband; we walked in Montr�al and everything seemed to be perfect. Then I cried… the Dr. gave me not good news and I got scared and I cried; this is the first time I cry in front of a Dr. Not even with my psychiatrist during my worst depressions!

In 1999 I was diagnosed with Hyperprolactinemia, a disorder caused my Hypothyroidism that basically consists in very high levels of Prolactine in my blood. But that is not all… I have a tumor on my Pituitary gland and it has grown so much that the Dr. was kind of worried and even sent me for a test to the Ophtalmologist because this tumor seems to be putting some pressure in the sorrounding tissues, including some optical fibers and that means my visual field might be a little impaired. Sounds bad, eh?

The tumor is suppossed to be a benign thing, but sure it’s scary and because of its size the Dr. even mentioned surgery! I will go for another Magnetic Resonance and I hope medication will be enough… I’m scared, really scared… and now I feel guilty because I know I should’ve done something before and I didn’t…

My blog has been commented!. Thanks Kristine!!

“I really like the big bright colors at bluetterfly - the blog Beatriz has been on my read list for a week or two now, and has already had 3 designs that I’ve liked LOL! I don’t change quite so frequently, but it sure is fun to see my friends who do! “

Did I change the layout again?? Yes, I did! and I’m finally happy with it… I don’t think I’m going to change it more for a looooooong time. This is just exactly what I wanted and thanks to Steph who came to visit, put nice comments in my guestbook (I changed it, tho… Bravenet sucks!) and shared her cool site with her beautiful artwork. I hope she doesn’t mind I’m using it here… I just love it!

And it seems it’s insomnia night again… Went to sleep at 9:30 p.m. and woke up at midnight… what else to do? come here and amuse myself playing on the web