I’m surviving. The antibiotic and the pumps are doing their work and I’m feeling much better, physically and emotionally; turns out I was kind of PMS-ing and well, it’s natural for me to have these periods of “nobody loves me, I want my mommy”. I should know better, I live with myself every single day, huh? Thanks anyway for the good wishes and the support.

Christmas has arrived a little earlier to this household, for me anyway. I had been thinking about changing my computer for quite a long time because my Compaq Presario wants to go for retirement. I’m kind of ashamed to admit that I have less than 10 GB of hard drive and even though I have enough RAM to make me fly, the processor plain sucks, compared to what the market has to offer these days. The deal is, I’ve got a new PC, with the works, DVD, CD-Writer, big memory, super fast processor, along with this very cool monitor (mail rebate, yay!).

Yesterday when Patrice came back home he told me we should go to take a look at prices, but I knew all along that we would end up coming back home with a new computer because he doesn’t go just to “look at stuff”; when he decides it’s time to buy something, he just does it. Of course, I’m paying for it, but I need his credit history to get approved and I’m just thankful he trusts me. I’m very responsible with my monthly payments and I guess he knows that very well.

I haven’t installed it yet. We just opened the boxes last night and I guess the plans for this weekend are to get busy with the new baby. I’m sentimental and I know I’m going to miss my Compaq (I’m silly like that), but once I see the speed on the other one… ha! The good thing is that I’m going to give this PC to one of the guys at Patrice’s office whom I adore and know will be happy to have a PC at home :) And another good thing is that since my hard drive is not that big, I don’t have a lot of stuff to move over.

Three boxes of Kleenex and a bottle of cold syrup after, my flu is getting somehow decent. I’ve been, however, very depressed these last two days, crying for no reason and feeling under the weather with everything that means. The lack of sun light this week is taking away the best of me and then again, when you’re sad, being alone makes it worse. I was supposed to have a busy and happy weekend with a Baby Shower, a Bridal Shower and a Bachelorette Party (the last two for Elisa), but well… my body said something different.

I woke up this morning with an allergy, my nose and my eyes were itchy and dripping all day, so around 5:30 p.m. I went to the pharmacy and there I saw the Dr. was seeing patients, so I decided to try it out since 1) there weren’t a lot of people and 2) it costs nothing. I only had to wait like half an hour and then this Dr. from Uruguay (yay for Spanish!) did a check up and told me I had Bronchitis and mentioned something about Asthma, she sent me antibiotics and two pumps, even though I’m doing much better than 3 days ago. Patrice is cool about his cold, but I’m Diabetic and I can’t take any chances with my immune system.

Evenings seem to be easier for me regarding the depressive phase. I feel more energetic and motivated, probably because Patrice is here with me, but the rest of the day I just don’t have any energy to do anything, I just lie down on the sofa, watch TV and cry every time there’s a scene of a daughter with her father. Then I think of Colombia, my family, my friends and how utterly alone I am in this country, even though I have a husband who loves me. Crying yesterday I told Patrice “How sad it is that you’re sick and you don’t even have a friend to call and ask how you’re doing”.

It’ll pass, I know it’ll pass, but for now it just sucks and if I continue like this, then I will have to go and see my Dr. and admit with shame that I didn’t follow the treatment with Prozac like I should. I don’t know if I can call this a Seasonal Affective Disorder, but at least I can say that it gets worse every year when the days start to get shorter.

I’ve been sick like a dog these last two days. Horrible! I hadn’t been this sick in quite a long time. Yesterday I was running a very bad fever and breathing normally was out of the question. Thank God for mothers (in law), Patrice’s mom came to save us, brought us comfort food, other food supplies, medication, etc. (he has been sick too, remember?).

I feel much better today. For some reason I started sweating like a horse and then my energy was back, the fever finally had effect, I guess. Too bad I’m going to miss some fun I had planned for this weekend. Funny, we don’t go out a lot and when there’s a chance to meet people, we get sick, bah! The TV has been our best friend and I think we’ll hibernate for the rest of the weekend if we want to be in decent shape for work next week.

The dear hubby is sick :( There was a man coughing and coughing on the plane and Patrice managed to get his germs, so I’ve been playing Nurse Bea for the last two days. It’s a really nasty cold, he’s coughing like a sick dog and has a fever… poor little thing. I told him that if tomorrow the fever doesn’t seem to go away we’re heading for the clinic because you know, this is Canada and there is a SARS warning everytime you enter the country, you never know. Knock on wood. I’ve become quite the specialist in honey lemon tea.

My weblog is kind of quite these days, hello? Anybody there? I’ve become this horrible horrible horrible blogger, I don’t leave comments, I barely read those weblogs on my list. But now I’m back to my routine and I’ll try to catch up with people. Meanwhile, how are you? Is life treating you well? The news on this side is that today I got my copy of The Lion King Special Edition DVD, hakuna matata! And new blankets because winter is coming! Other than that, same as usual… Not working this week, but I’m sure I’ll be busy again after the weekend.