One of the things I like to put in my weblog is a weather gizmo. I have to rely in the web based ones because the MT weather plugin never wanted to work here and now the site that provides the data doesn’t work. Anyway, I went to Weather Underground to get a gizmo and I found this little jewel… so wrong. It’s QC for the Province of Quebec, not QB, you twits!
For some people it’s not a secret that I have had problems with a friend who’s sick with Cancer. I have to confess that we’ve been talking lately, not much, but at least I don’t have this feeling of abandon anymore and I’m somehow relieved. Anyway, I’m just mentioning her because I remember someone once telling me that people who get Cancer deserve it because they are bad. What a preposterous thing to say! What an irresponsible statement! Ignorance is one of the worst things that can happen to you. I don’t take diseases as a punishment from the gods or something, they just happen, because we’re not perfect, the human body is vulnerable sometimes.
Here I am today, leaving to see the Dr. in a few minutes to have my Endocrinology check-up and to ask him to take a look at my left breast and probably give me an order for a mammogram or an ultrasound because in the last few weeks things don’t seem very normal. There are no physical changes and I can’t feel any lumps (or maybe I’m just not checking carefully, fearing to actually find one), but it hurts, and even though they say pain is usually NOT a sign of Breast Cancer, I’m a little bit scared. Ok, not a little bit… I’m very scared. The last thing I need now is to be told I have Breast Cancer, but if I don’t talk to my Dr. about this, it’s going to be worse.
There, the secret that has been keeping me worried for a while is out. Some of my friends laugh at me and don’t take me seriously, but I’m concerned. It could be anything, but if you’re a woman, and one of your breasts hurts, what would you do? 70% of women will experience breast pain at some point in their lives and from those cases, 2-3% will be Cancer. It’s a very small percentage, but I just don’t want to be there. Not now that my life is finally starting to show some promising future. Wish me luck.
Update @ 2:49 p.m.: My endocrinologist (sweet, sweet man, God bless him!) performed an examination and told me that I have cysts in my breasts (Fibrocystic Condition, it seems), but that I shouldn’t be concerned about Breast Cancer. He said he didn’t feel any suspicious hard lump and told me I’m too young (although I know BC cases at 25), plus there is no Cancer history in my family. He said I could talk to my GP and go for a mammogram if that makes me feel better, but that he wasn’t concerned at all. It’s a relief, yes, but I’m still going to get an appointment with my GP and a mammogram done.
On the really good side: All blood work numbers came perfectly normal. :-)
It doesn’t take much to make me happy, I’m like a kid. But this morning the telephone rang and when I heard my ex-boss’ voice I felt really excited. I haven’t seen him since November 2003 and I’ve missed him very much. He was really nice to me when I was working at Patrice’s office and I was sad to see him go. Anyway, he wants to see us and invited us for dinner tonight and we’re going to Boccacinos, so he can discuss some flower business with Patrice. This probably isn’t that important to anyone who reads this weblog, but I’m very happy to see him again, yay!
Since July 2003 I’ve made part of a little community online called “The BKO Lounge”. Brian kindly invited me to join them last summer and after being a nice wallflower for a while, I finally became kind of active in the forums, which I enjoyed very much. Now the forums are closed, but Brian has come up with another wonderful idea, a group weblog (kind of like MetaFilter) where the members can post and discuss. It is currently closed for registration, but I invite you to take a look. I’m just glad my little lizard lair is still rockin’ on.
P.S. Oh yes! I changed the layout a little since Spring is no more. I’ve become quite the lazy bum, though… I just changed the photos, background color, CSS and that’s it. Really, who wants to complicate their life these days? ;-)