Can’t stay happy long :-(

Big changes are coming, good changes, life will get better. I should be happy, right? But I can’t seem to get out of this ugly funk for good. It gets better for a few hours and then BAM! I think it’s the rollercoaster everyone talks about, but I thought my ride was kind of over. Looks like I was totally wrong, I’m back at Disney World again, one minute laughing, the next one I’m crying and not really knowing what to do.

I’ve tried everything I could today. Took a nap, played some upbeat music, called an old friend, watched my “Gilmore Girls” DVD, didn’t really work. Last resort: going out to see if I can shake it off because I hate feeling like this, I really hate it. I’ve been so busy and stressed lately I hardly have had time to post here, but I think it’s time to stop feeling sorry for myself. My social life has been reduced to ashes these days and I have to do something about it. There are a few good friends out there who would be more than happy to see me, so I’m bailing on everything and everyone tonight to be with them. I need it, so freaking much!

This too shall pass. I think it’s just loneliness, that’s why I’m going out looking for some real company, so I don’t go round and round with my thoughts of ickiness. I definitely could use some laughs now.