Well, hello there!

First photo of Bea in Canada. Heh… I’m going to a party. See ya later!

Life as as student

Even if I haven’t started studying yet, I try to go to the university as often as possible. Just hanging around the place makes me feel better, gives me hope, gives sense to my life when I start feeling crappy. Being a small university, students have the chance to meet just anyone (OK, I’m exaggerating, but that’s the idea) and it’s a happy coincidence that there’s a colombian guy in the Biology program. He’s been very nice to me, showing me around, explaining how things work, encouraging me and introducing me to all the peeps he crosses paths with. Everyone’s nice… the charm of small cities!

I have a good feeling about this one, I can’t wait until classes start. There’s a party on Friday, feels like an appetizer for what is coming later. And no, I don’t plan to live la vida loca, but I’m all alone now, free, might as well enjoy it!

When it rains…

Sucks that I can’t talk about what’s bothering me today openly, but man… it’s one thing after another. They aren’t that bad, everything has a solution or we learn to deal with crap, really. It’s just funny how life surprises you and makes you get discouraged, but despite everything you just have to go on and fight, fight, fight… Go to the matresses! Doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt to get certain news sometimes. OUCH!

So, my holidays… hmmm!

Let me tell you, somehow I’m not looking forward to the holidays, but I have to change this crappy attitude or I’ll be the most miserable woman on earth. Last year I was dumped by husband and, still like that, I managed to have a good time with my family. This year, of course, it will be different because I’ll be kinda sorta alone in Canada. Will I be completely and utterly alone? I’m sure I won’t, but I’m starting to look at different possibilities to spend Christmas Eve and New Year’s Eve (among the other happy days) busy enough to avoid potential “feeling like caca”. So here they are…

- Volunteering at the hospital, keeping sick people company.
- Volunteering at a shelter, feeding the homeless.
- Volunteering at Opération Nez Rouge, driving drunkies home.
- Helping peeps who bring gifts to the poor.

What can be more rewarding than helping others, right? So, it’s a great way to look at things now. My loneliness and sadness are the means to do something for someone else and that’s why people say everything happens for a reason. I’m learning, I’m growing. The holidays are coming… Ho ho ho!

Staying in

The day is nice enough to go out and take some pictures, so I might do that later before going to mass. The sun is actually shining, I’m living in winterland already, it’s kinda pretty, and I don’t think “la neige va partir”… might as well get used to it. Madi and her mom invited me to go with them for a photo session for the kids, but I prefered to stay at home, do laundry and take care of my student loan application. It was short and painless… Legally separated, no income, no parents in Canada, poor little thing! I think they will have enough consideration to give me a good loan and a scholarship.

I’m excited about this going back to school thing. When I saw the director of the program I asked him a lot of questions about everything and he told me there are great chances for a summer job working with the teachers doing research, that money is good and that they always lack of students, so if I’m really interested I could be working in a cool forest ecology project… who knows! I don’t remember being this motivated when I went back to school last year, but I blame my relationship going to the pooper and all the stress related to it. Oh well, no looking back now, just forward to a great education.

Laundry’s ready, so I better get ready to fold… my favourite task… NOT.