I’ve been back in Canada for 3 weeks now. It’s been stressful, I have to admit it. I came here only with a few dollars and the desire to start my life anew. I have good friends and other nice people helping me and I’m making use of every community resource there is available to find a job, but last week I decided to apply for school since I still have to get my Biology degree. I met with the director of the Biology program at the local university (small town, great school) and he was impressed with my grades, so he told me I would get admitted right away and he would give me as much credits as he could, so I can get my degree in 1 year or so.

Anyway, with the looking for a job stress I was thinking of going to school only part-time, but today the employment counselor told me to study full-time, get a part-time job and get my degree ASAP, so I can get a good job in the region (natural resources are a huge thing here). I can apply for financial aid and it will be decent since I’m all alone here, find a weekend job or so and support myself as a student. It doesn’t sound like an unachievable dream and I know going to school is a much better option for me right now if I want to make a decent living in the future.

So, these are the newest developments in Bea’s life. I’m almost 100% sure about this and the counselor thinks I have great potential for school, so if everything goes well I will be a full-time Biology student starting Winter 2006. I want to do this, I need to do this and doors are opening for me. I know I can do it and I’m proud of myself.

Woohoo! My PC’s finally here and I’m really happy. Fabián was nice enough to send it to me from Montreal, he took care of it first, installed Linux (so I can learn!) and now I’m playing with it like a kid with a new toy that isn’t that new, but well… I missed my machine so much! I can hear my music (KEANE! I have Keane songs!), make graphics, check my documents… After 10 months! Too bad I can’t stay and play because I have to work in the municipal elections today, but I’ll be on tonight… yeehaa!

All I need now is a mousepad and another mouse, I think, heh!

Running, running all over the place. I’m at the employment centre and I’m really not supposed to use the computer for anything else, but job search, oh well! It’s a cold day today and I woke up feeling a little sad, but who has good days every day, right? Each morning is a little bit hard, I wake up feeling anxious and wondering what my life is going to be like, but then I just pray and get the courage to face the new day with a smile on my face for every person that crosses paths with me.

Today I made my first official grocery shopping and good for me, I managed to stay under budget. God, I really need to find a job soon, so I can stop worrying about my bank account going down just like that. I have to keep my faith, knock on every door, seize every opportunity, show that I’m motivated so the people who are helping me will see I’m capable of great things. My self-confidence is growing and despite my sad moments, I know I’ll be OK because I’m being brave and I’m giving it all trying to achieve my goals. What else is there for me to do? I’m figuring it out and asking God to show me the way He wants me to follow.

Anyway, I have to go now. A few CV’s need to be presented. Wish me luck!