Last day of March, where did time go? My last month of school will start on Monday and I have more things to do than time available, but if I made it this far, everything else will be just fine. Talked to one of my teachers this morning about a lab test I have on the 10th because I was worried about fucking it up, but he kinda laughed and told me to take it easy and don't stress too much about 10 points. I have this really bad habit of being a perfectionist, so he reminded me of the ...
One of my favourite songs in Spanish goes:
Así es la vida de caprichosa
A veces negra, a veces rosa
Así es la vida, jacarandosa
Que te quita, te pone
Te sube, te baja
Y a veces te lo da.
It's about how life gives you things and takes things away from you. I don't know if it's obvious that I've been feeling blue lately, but yes... I am feeling blue. Everything is going well, but I still feel sad sometimes, I can't help it, divorce is harder than anyone can imagine and I certainly don't wish it to anyone.
So yes, life is hard sometimes, but ...
If anyone is interested in taking a look at my "domestic" life, I've added a bunch of photos to my MSN Space. They are mostly of my roomies and my friends from school. Now that it's getting warmer I plan on taking the camera out more often. Comes Summer... I'm gonna go crazy. I plan to see as much as I can.
"It's amazing how cruel our spouses can be when they've decided that they no longer need us in their lives. Suddenly we're just a hinderance, not a human being, not someone with feelings, not a lover, just a big obstacle in the way of their pursuit for happiness."
I didn't write that. One of my message boards buddies did. How true... How sad and true. I can deal with the whole "I don't love you anymore" thing. It's the cruel ways he used to end it all up I still have trouble with. Gut wrenching, actually.
J'imagine qu'il peut l'ajouter ...
As much as I'm loving being back in school, the college life, the new friends, the social environment and discovering all the wonderful things I can do on my own, sometimes I wish I were still at "home", feeling safe and having someone to hold me while I sleep, someone to hold me when I'm feeling sad, like tonight. Dammit.