Get me out of here!

My new roommates moved in today. I already don’t like the situation. CEGEP kids, very young and looking like spoiled brats. Not to mention they are family. I feel like a stranger in my own place, not nice. Then there’s Mrs. Mommy pretending to boss me around. Hello??? I had to tell her “Madame, I’m not a little girl, you don’t need to pick that tone of voice with me. I can understand very well in a good manner.” — She looks at me like “Hell!” and I keep talking to her in the nicest possible way so things don’t get ugly. After all, she’s leaving and I’m stuck with her spawn. Eeek!

Solution? Move to the other side of the building where my friends from last session are going to be. I’m happy to see some new faces back. Problem isn’t the kids are young, problem is they look spoiled, I am not exaggerating. One of the guys from the other side already told me “Cool! You can move with us and I’ll help you move your stuff.” — Really cute. Gawd… I have to think about this, but I already talked to the landlady and she told me not to freak out just yet, but that I’m welcome to change my mind anytime. I think she already noticed how bitchy is these kids mother… Oh well!

Je reviens à Montréal…

I hear Arianne Moffatt in my head. I’m going to Montreal in three weeks, woot! Going to meet with a couple of High School friends and spend a nice weekend with them. I so deserve it, dangnamit! Been studying and working non-stop since January and now the opportunity presented itself, so I’m taking it. This is actually very exciting, I haven’t seen Adri and Nanda for a long time and we used to have such a good time in Colombia. Seeing them after all this time, living totally different lives… That’s gotta be something!

I’ve been keeping myself from moving around too much since I came to Chicoutimi, but I really need the break. Not to mention I miss Montreal a lot. So it’s going to be fun… Can hardly wait! And it all happened so fast, they ambushed me this morning, Nanda’s buying tickets as I type this (she’s in Chicago), so I can’t back up now. One has got to live!

Two days left…

My summer job at Alcan will end up on Friday. I’m sad. I really liked working there, it was a very rewarding and challenging experience, totally different from everything I’ve done before. I met great people, felt useful, appreciated, encouraged. Today at lunch I was looking at the place and the faces around me and I felt like crying (sentimental fool that I am…) — I’m ready to move on and go back to school, but I suppose I still have this great ability to get attached, especially to things I enjoy doing and people who are nice to me.

This was a beautiful opportunity and I learned a lot about this region, but also a big deal about myself and the things I’m capable of doing. Working at Alcan helped me find even more independence and now I realize that I can do plenty of things on my own with no problem. When they gave me this job they didn’t know how much impact it would have in my life, a great impact. I compare everything I do now to what I did when I was married and the only thing I can think of now is how sad it is the person I was with never gave me credit. I would’ve rocked his world. His loss.

So for all this I’m grateful. I’m happy to know that I’m leaving this place with no regrets, no sad memories. It was good, all good. And who knows, maybe next year I’ll be an industrial hygiene technician again, with some experience on the field. Life goes on!

I feel so light…

Songs were created for people like me. When I’m lost in my thoughts, or when I don’t know how to put my feelings down in words, there’s always music. I do feel light… Feel like I’ve been walking for a long time and now I arrived somewhere. Who knows how long I’m going to stay in this place, who knows if it’s a good place, but I might as well enjoy it without thinking too much.

Tonight and the Rest of my Life – by Nina Gordon

Down to the earth I fell
With dripping wings
Heavy things won’t fly
And the sky might catch on fire
And burn the axis of the world
That’s why I prefer a sunless sky
To the glittering and stinging in my eyes

I feel so light
This is all I want to feel tonight
I feel so light
Tonight and the rest of my life

Gleaming in the dark sea
I’m as light as air
Floating there breathlessly
When the dream dissolves
I open up my eyes
I realize that
Everything is shoreless sea
A weightlessness is passing over me

Everything is waves and stars
The universe is resting in my arms.

Hey, this is cool!

At the risk of appearing too narcissistic, MySpace has this new and cool slideshow feature, so I decided to create mine.