BRH Forum

Oh yay! I don’t know how long it’s been going on, but I just discovered Brian implemented a forum at the Big Red House, and I joined this morning. It’s been a while of divorce-related forums for me, and I’m getting kind of tired of it all (at some point you move on and don’t want to discuss it on a daily basis). I remember the good old days at the Lizard Lounge and all the fun I had there discussing everything under the sun with a great bunch of people. I certainly don’t have a lot of free time these days, but getting in touch with the lizards again will be good, real good.

Too green?

I decided to change my layout once again, but now I’m worried. The colours look very nice on my laptop, but when I went to check it on the desktop, all I see is a freaking electric lime green that would make any eye cry. So, what do you see? Peaceful kinda earth-tone green or horrible Kermit green all over? Help!

P.S. I love Kermit.

Just to compensate…

Mid-November and the sun is shining at 16 degrees celsius, feels just like Spring! But hmmm… I better don’t celebrate too much because I’m sure next week we’ll plunge directly into Winter in a matter of days. Yeah, this is how Mother Nature likes to play with us Québecois. Anyhoo, I’m feeling good after finishing a Biochem lab report A WEEK IN ADVANCE (that sure is a hallmark) and a PowerPoint presentation for my Histophysiology class. Yeah, life is grand at this very moment.

OK, now I’m just gonna do a meme, the Friday Feast. [Via Logtar]

Appetizer
Do you believe there is intelligent life on other planets?
It would be stupid to think that we’re the only ones in this universe. I’m not sure about people who have said they’ve seen aliens and all that, but it’s highly improbable (is that a word?) that there isn’t more life around.

Soup
What is one thing you said you’d never do, but you eventually did?
Try marihuana. I got curious, gave in, I wanted to know what the fuss was about. I didn’t like it. Eeek! In the immortal words of Donkey: “Oh, that is nasty!

Salad
Who is the teacher that influenced you the most in school?
There are 2: 1) My 2nd grade teacher because she was a sweetheart who showed me the bond between a teacher and a student can trascend and last for years. 2) My chemistry teacher in High School, because he always reminded us of the importance of being ourselves and giving priority to what we are and not what we have.

Main Course
If you could trade places with anyone for one day, who would it be and why?
Today? I think I have to choose my 2-year-old niece because I’m sure she’s not stressing about lab reports or presentations or finals or any of that. She must be very happy playing in her school yard, waiting for mommy to pick her up and not worrying about what’s gonna happen the day after.

Dessert
What is your favorite dish to prepare?
Right now I feel like making a good beef stew. I like it, it’s comfort food. Just the smell while it simmers makes me think of the good things in life. I also like making my mom’s famous “Cazuela de Pollo” and I think I’m gonna do that this weekend because it’s been AGES since I ate that.

It ain’t over yet? UGH!

I’ve been trying to contact my lawyer since last week to ask her if my divorce is final yet, and I just talked to her secretary. Well, turns out the divorce is now in the hands of my ex-husband’s lawyer and IT AIN’T FINAL YET! Almost two years later, I’m still waiting for this nightmare to be over because for the past 3 months I’ve been told it was going to go fast once I gave up alimony and the “demande en divorce” was submitted to the court. Hell no… I’m still married to a person who hurt me, who never really loved me like I wanted to be loved and who has put me through more crap than I thought I was able to deal with.

I’m getting impatient and frustrated. I think of this situation like a terminal patient about to die… What a burden! I wasn’t the one who wanted this, I was abused and humiliated and given NO freaking option. Now I have to stand behind the glass of the Intensive Care Unit and watch this die slowly, and right now I don’t care anymore for the broken marriage or the suffering I’ve gone through… I JUST WANT TO BE DIVORCED, DAMMIT! It’s like a bad soap-opera episode that doesn’t want to end and I’m tired, very tired!

My first impulse this morning after talking with the lawyer’s office was dialing my ex-husband’s number and telling him to tell his stupid lawyer to move his butt and get us that divorce ASAP. I really don’t have any reason to be this impatient, since I’ve felt divorced since the day I walked out the door, but enough is enough. I need this to be final, I want this to be final, I can’t live with unfinished business. But since there is absolutely nothing I can do about this, I’ll just sit and wait. I don’t like this feeling of my life’s being in other people’s hands… Feels like a freaking game.

Tengo Muchas Alas (Maná)

No digas que no te amé,
Ni digas que no te entregué,
mi amor en cuerpo y alma.
Es que yo daba la vida por ti
estuve ahí, nunca fallaba, si me entregaba.

No me aceptaste como soy,
y cada vez que yo extendí mis alas, tú me las recortabas.
Nunca quisiste aceptar, todos tenemos un pasado,
pasado es pasado.

Pero hoy el sol ya está saliendo,
y se que tengo muchos cielos por volar,
y se que el viento nos reparte a todos alas,
el viento me hará volar.

Tengo muchas alas pa’ llegar al cielo, el viento me hará volar,
tengo muchas alas pa’ llegar al sol, nada me puede derribar,
se que el viento va a soplar, el viento va.

Yo voy a desplegar mis alas aunque peligre,
aunque yo me caiga,voy a alcanzarlas nubes y besarlas.
Y aunque te ame yo ya me voy, y aunque te extrañe
hoy no te estoy, pidiendo clemencia.

Nunca me quisiste como soy,
siempre rechazando lo que soy,
no soy lo que has querido.
Nunca lo quisiste aceptar,
todo el mundo tiene un pasado, amor,
el pasado ya pasó.

Pero hoy el sol me está sonriendo,
será que tengo muchos cielos ya por volar,
será que el viento nos reparte a todos alas,
el viento me hará volar.

Tengo muchas alas pa’ llegar al cielo, el viento me hará volar,
tengo muchas alas pa’ llegar al sol, nada me puede derribar,
hoy mi corazón… se eleva, voy a volar.

tengo muchas ganas pa’ llegar al cielo, el viento me hará volar,
tengo muchas alas pa’ llegar al sol, y voy a besar el cielo,
yo tengo muchas alas pa’ llegar al cielo, y voy a llegar, llegar al sol,
y tengo muchas ganas pa’ llegar al sol.