Friday’s Feast 123

Today’s Friday’s Feast is about Christmas.

Appetizer
What is one of your Christmas traditions?
Getting to say hello to neighbours and share Christmas food. YUM!

Soup
Who is the easiest person on your list to buy presents for?
That has to be the cat because she won’t complain. Hah!

Salad
What is your favourite Christmas scent?
Hmmm… Cinnamon, I guess. I like the potpurri.

Main Course
If you could give a fellow blogger a Christmas gift, who would it be and what would you give them?
Ah! Easy. I would give Logtar that PS Dance thingy he likes so much.

Dessert
What’s something on your Christmas wish list this year that you need?
I really don’t NEED anything, except for some inner peace, as usual.

Yeah, more divorce stuff

I’m watching “Must Love Dogs” for the 3rd time. I’m seeing Diane Lane playing the divorced woman role, just like she did in what became my favourite movie, “Under the Tuscan Sun.” — I like it how the character loses her marbles from time to time. She gets angry at the grocery store clerk who wants to sell her more chicken than she wants because she’s a divorced woman who eats alone, usually standing over the sink. She gets angry at the guy who plays her and makes her feel used, she tells him off, she screams “I hate guys like you!” — I love it, that very human side.

And this is probably what I haven’t done, drop the basket, get angry, tell people off when I’m feeling frustrated. It is OK to be angry, and it is healthy to express it. It doesn’t mean I have to go off like a loaded gun and spurt a bunch of horrible words, but I feel like I’ve just kept it all inside for too long, trying to keep some composure when there’s a volcano inside me.

Yeah, I definitely like it how Diane Lane loses her composure, cries, becomes like a little girl throwing a tantrum. Sure, it doesn’t sound that mature, but the more you keep things inside, the more they are going to eat you alive. I guess next time I’m feeling upset I’ll pull a Diane Lane in Must Love Dogs and see how that goes. And no, it isn’t a threat… I’m just thinking.

Kitty vs. Doggie

I know April is probably not going to appreciate this entry because she gets fed up with people who blog about their cat, but man! My afternoon has been really interesting dog-sitting for a friend. The resident cat of the house… Well… That isn’t a very social kitty for sure. So the doggie decides to be nice and get close and kitty goes HISS HISS HISS MEOWWW! Doggie comes to me shaking and scared, I hug doggie and scold kitty. I had to put kitty on time out for a while, and doggie’s sitting right next to me, chilling.

I wonder if I would make a good mommy. I sure know how to separate fighting kids. LOL — Gonna check on grounded kitty now.

Never loved you?

When I hear divorcing people saying “I never loved him/her” I have to ask “Then why the hell did you get married?” — I know I married for love and I certainly hope that at some point my ex-husband felt the same, even if it didn’t work. I can’t believe someone walks into marriage feeling absolutely nothing for the person they choose to be with. What kind of sick and twisted individual decides to be with someone if they don’t even like the person? I do not believe that’s the way it is.

Unfortunately divorce is a very ugly matter and horrible things are said in the middle of it. I’m somewhat grateful for the way I dealt with mine, always trying to be as nice as possible, always avoiding saying words I would end up regretting no matter how hurt I was. Yes, I’ve had my moments of anger, I’ve thought the worst about the man who left me, but I don’t deny that I loved him very much, I don’t deny he is a good man and that, when we were together, he was a good husband. And I’ve NEVER said any mean things to him, mostly because of me… Because I know I would’ve ended up feeling worse.

Why does love die? Why do we stop loving? I have no idea. I’m not the one to judge other people’s relationships. Some get bad with time, some are bad from the very beginning. Every relationship has the potential to end, and when they do, I think we have to show some self-respect and deal with it graciously and with dignity. Being around divorce support groups has shown me the human nature at its worst sometimes. And what’s sad is that losing our temper and becoming asses seems to be the way for many people who let others control their life instead of moving on.

Person of the Year: Me!

Time Magazine has chosen internet users as “Person of the Year” — That means me, right? I always knew I was going to be famous one day, hah! Not only that, Time Magazine also chose YouTube.com as the best invention of 2006. Kinda cool to realize that I make part of a cool community. Funny to think that old school people (like my parents) see the internet as the devil’s spawn. For me, getting online is just a normal part of my life, like drinking water, my window to the world, my way to stay in touch with people. The internet… That’s the best invention of the 20th century for me. Awesome.