Lent Reflections

First Friday of lent today, huh? Yeah, meat is not on the menu. I followed this tradition when I lived with my parents, and then I kinda forgot about it. I’m trying to go back to the tradition, so I have tuna to make a soufflĂ©, and I’ll try not to eat too much today. Small sacrifices, for those who believe in what we’ve been taught.

When reading the church bulletin I found a list of ideas for “Fasting.” It isn’t about going hungry for hours or days. It’s about giving up some of those things that give us so much pleasure. But also those things that aren’t good, but we indulge in. And I’m not talking about smoking, drinking or eating sweets. I’m talking about spending great part of our time holding feelings of resentment toward others. Gossipping, saying bad things about people, trying to find a way to get back at them for whatever we consider they did wrong.

Why do we become judges? And why do we like to dwell on feelings of anger and hate? Forgiveness doesn’t help the person we forgive. It helps US! Even more, why do we like to look at the mistakes of others rather than looking in and realize we are not perfect? One thing is responding like the human beings we are, when someone hurts us, and another thing is deliberately using actions and words to damage that person.

Lent is a period of reflection. And I don’t pretend to be self-righteous on this post, I just wish people (including myself) stopped for a moment to think carefully about their day to day actions. In my convictions, I know God is merciful, but how much is too much when it comes to living in this world? We can make it heaven, or we can make it hell.

Friday’s Feast 132

Appetizer
Where on your body do you have a scar, and what caused it?
No big scars, since I’ve never been badly hurt. But I have a couple on my knees, the first thing that touched the ground when I fell as a kid. I remember a big gash when jumping off my bicycle. Oh yeah, dare devil!

Soup
What is something that has happened to you that you would consider a miracle?
This is funny. When doing referee on a Tennis tournament, I was standing next to one of the net posts. I heard someone call my name, so I turned around and said “What?” — Then, one of the huge light bulbs from the court lamps fell right where I was standing just one second before. The curious thing is that nobody really said my name. I could’ve been hurt badly by that thing. I consider that a little miracle.

Salad
Name a television personality who really gets on your nerves.
Oh, this one is easy. A character: George Constanza from Seinfeld. A real life person: Donald Trump. His face kinda repulses me, I don’t know why.

Main Course
What was a funny word you said as a child?
I don’t know of any words, but when my mom was potty training me, she said “Baby, you have to tell me.” So every time I wanted to go to the bathroom I told her “Mommy, I have to tell you!”

Dessert
Fill in the blank:
I have always thought gender was pronounced guender.

Mentally Exhausted

I removed myself from the world and spent about 4 hours in the most hidden corner at the local library, writing the story of my life. I need it in order to get an annulment from the Catholic church. I’m exhausted, I feel like I’ve been doing brain cardio or something. 8 pages written and I haven’t even finished! Too many questions asked, too many details required. At least I got to the “I don’t love you anymore” part. Oh, the drama! I wonder if I should get copyright for this one. ;)

This should be interesting. Tiring, but kinda therapeutic.

BTW… Since you’re reading my weblog: Take your time, sunshine. I’m not in a hurry to have this done. Either you send the papers I need, or you’ll have the Ecclesiastic Tribunal contact you ANYWHERE you are. Your choice! You got a lawyer, I got the Pope, meh! :)

What are you giving up?

Ash Wednesday, and I’m getting ready to go to church to get my cross. Of course my best friend told me to get some ointment because the ashes are probably going to burn and leave a mark on my forehead because, she says, I’m evil. I’m bringing aloe just in case. LOL

Now, on a serious note, I don’t think I’ve ever given anything up for Lent. I was telling someone I probably will give up smoking, because it would be a sacrifice, but also because it’s good for me. I was advised not to go cold turkey. I suppose I’ll stop at the pharmacy and buy gum or one of those patches.

Other than that, there is nothing I can think of right now I should give up that would feel like a sacrifice. I don’t even spend too much time online these days. But maybe I should stop reading stuff that upsets me.

One of my favourite

I loved this audition on American Idol last week.

And based on last night’s show, I didn’t actually vote for the guy I liked from the very beginning. But I’m not going to say who I voted for, hah! Oh yes, I’m a dork, I actually dialed the number.