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Today would've been my wedding anniversary. Some would think that while I'm writing this post, some tears are flowing from my eyes. But no, I am feeling fine. I teared up quite a lot yesterday writing a long letter for him (that I'm not going to send, it was more for cathartic purposes), but somehow today seems to be one of those good days. OK, there's a little bit of sadness, but it could be much worse. So I guess I have to thank God that I woke up this morning, looked throught the window and the sun was shinning.

My hopes and dreams are now pointing in new directions. It sure hasn't been easy, there have been really shitty days when I've felt I'm going to die. Other days aren't that bad and I've grown up quite a lot, learned about myself, thought about what I want to do, or at least where I want to do it. There are new things and new people in my life, some more special than others. So I guess I survived... These days are way better and I'm definitely not the same person I was 8 months ago when things ended between Patrice and I.

So, happy anniversary to me. I learned something from all this, I learned that I can feel great things and that I can achieve great things. I learned what love is and that makes it worth it, despite the pain. One day I'll look back and it won't hurt anymore.