Can’t stay happy long :-(
Posted: August 13th, 2005 | Author: Bea | Filed under: Life, Thoughts | 2 Comments »Big changes are coming, good changes, life will get better. I should be happy, right? But I can’t seem to get out of this ugly funk for good. It gets better for a few hours and then BAM! I think it’s the rollercoaster everyone talks about, but I thought my ride was kind of over. Looks like I was totally wrong, I’m back at Disney World again, one minute laughing, the next one I’m crying and not really knowing what to do.
I’ve tried everything I could today. Took a nap, played some upbeat music, called an old friend, watched my “Gilmore Girls” DVD, didn’t really work. Last resort: going out to see if I can shake it off because I hate feeling like this, I really hate it. I’ve been so busy and stressed lately I hardly have had time to post here, but I think it’s time to stop feeling sorry for myself. My social life has been reduced to ashes these days and I have to do something about it. There are a few good friends out there who would be more than happy to see me, so I’m bailing on everything and everyone tonight to be with them. I need it, so freaking much!
This too shall pass. I think it’s just loneliness, that’s why I’m going out looking for some real company, so I don’t go round and round with my thoughts of ickiness. I definitely could use some laughs now.
For whatever is worth, hang in there Bea! Just remember that although no one else can make the journey towards healing and well-being for you, you don’t have to go at it by yourself. If you can’t get out of the rut by yourself, seek help. Even in Colombia, a “católica, apostólica, y romana” country, you are not alone.
If nothing else, remember that life is way too short to be miserable. Or to pass on dessert! ;)
And yes, you can tell me to go mind my own business, if that’s how you feel. Hugs to you either way.
Yo no estoy en tu situacion ahora, pero he estado. Pasara, te lo prometo. Pero bueno en Colombia hay bastante que hacer, mucho mas que por aca… a veces es mejor sentir el dolor, entenderlo para de verdad poder dejarlo atras.