It sure has been a long time. I started blogging when the blogosphere was in the early phases of its evolution. I think I’ve seen it all, or almost. A blog can be fun, or it can be a real pain the butt. But I’ve enjoyed it most of the time. And for the last 2 years I’ve been blogging every single month (with nothing really interesting to say, if I may add).
And then every day when I open my browser, my website is the homepage so I get to see this weblog as a reminder to post, darn it, post! And I stare blankly at the screen thinking “What do I have to say that will catch people’s attention?” –Nothing. Have I become too lazy to discuss what really matters to me? Not really. I think I just lost my audience; and that is my fault.
Truth is I don’t even read many other blogs anymore. I just go quickly through my Google reader, check that everyone is alive and kicking, but I don’t pay attention to what they are saying. Yeah, that is horrible of me… How selfish! But then again, I’m not craving the attention either.
And here I am wondering if I have burnt all the bridges. This blog isn’t even an emotional outlet anymore; thankfully because my issues are either solved (Hah! Yeah, right…) or because I have other means of expression. I feel like my opinionated days are somewhat over. Not because I don’t have an opinion, but because I don’t feel the need to say something when I’m not asked to. That sounds kind bland, doesn’t it? But that’s the way I feel.
Maybe I’m too busy, or maybe it’s been long enough since I started blogging. And the word “Retirement” sounds good right now. But I know I won’t do it, mostly because this is a habit, and old habits die hard.