I have enough American friends to feel that I kinda celebrated Thanksgiving yesterday. All the turkey talk made me feel as if I were the one stuffing on food at by the end of the day I was rather sick, ha ha! No, serioulsy… Yesterday was weird. I belong to a Divorce Support group on line and there was foul mood around, people feeling lonely, some going through their first holidays alone, very sad. It made me think what my holidays are going to be like this year now that I’ve decided to be all by myself in Canada. Sure, I have friends here and I’m starting to meet people, but it’s gonna be damn hard.

Last year meant shock after split, but I was with my family, they were flying around me like guardian eagles, I don’t know. I was the center of attention and it didn’t feel like pity or compassion, but real love. Christmas and New Year’s eve weren’t that happy, but they weren’t that horrible either because we were all together and my family’s peculiar enough to keep everyone entertained. Now it’s gonna be just me, myself and I and I wonder… I just wonder… if I’ll make it with enough courage. I’m sure I will, I made it all the way here even after all the crap I had to face, right? Time for some decorations!