OK, confession: The holidays are killing the very heart of me. I feel lonely, I miss my family, I want my mommy, I want to go home. Now, it’s time to be a big girl and assume life just like I chose it. I’m here because I wanted to be. I’m here because I know it’s good for me. I’m here because I wanted a challenge and good God… Am I being challenged! It’s all good, especially when there’s a reason to really believe there are angels on earth.

I was all bummed about having to spend Christmas alone. It was either being alone or attending a party I was invited to, but I know it was going to be too emotional for me and I decided not to go. So alone it was… until today. My colombian friend from the university invited me to celebrate with him and his family. We’re on the same boat, both struggling, both trying to make ends meet, we understand what it is like to be away from our country, so we’re giving each other support. I’m just glad I met him, he’s been so nice to me I’m here bawling like an idiot. He’s also offered help me move in january and I say all I can offer now is an ear to listen because he has his problems too.

It’s damn hard being alone, but this was MY decision, nobody made me. I know once I start school and get really busy I will have less time to think about the sad things and concentrate more on the future and the beautiful life I have ahead because I know God has me here for a good purpose. Less than a month, Bea… Less than a month. Meanwhile there are angels to rely on.