Sometimes it’s very hard to have to spend most of your time alone. With hubby working and my not working that much, it leaves me plenty of free time I really don’t know what to do with. I know I should try and do something new, something good, something to keep myself busy…

It is really hard when you’re not able to let out everything you have inside. Of course I share with Patrice, but there’s always something left behind that keeps going on and on in my head, that keeps me from sleeping well, from actually being able to enjoy life.

When you don’t know what is going wrong is bad, but when you know what you want, but you see no means to achieve it as fast as you want, that is frustrating. I guess I just need to be patient, take one day at a time and let life flow. Today I feel like half-way from the things I would like to do.

I guess I could use a listening friend. I’m at the selfish point here, not wanting to hear anyone but to be totally heard. I’m not to give advice now, I want someone to listen to me without having to listen to them. I miss Midori…