Shaking off the fleas

So… hmmm… Yes, I think I still have a few tickets left for the rollercoaster of my life. Not fun, but it happens. It isn’t easy to go through all this and I need to give myself some credit for being where I am and doing what I’m doing. I can’t let this crappy mood go on (last night was just awful… puffy eyes included this morning), I need to shake off the fleas, wake the hell up and continue being the courageous woman people say I am because that’s what I show and that’s what I am.

These past two weeks found me so much into school and lawyer issues that I kinda let the “looking for a job” thing fall out of place. While I’m not looking for a full time job anymore, I still need a part time one to keep myself busy and make ends meet once I start classes. I can’t bum all day long and stay on line feeling sorry for myself because husband dumped me. Not after a year, that is simply not allowed! Besides, there are other things to do, get to know this place, get to know people, make people know me… Get a life, you know!

I’m great at beating myself up, but I’m gonna be gentle now. Tomorrow I will wake up, take a shower, make my bed, I will go out, I will do what I have to do, I will make the phone calls I have to make and I’m gonna start the month of December with new hopes. A year ago my life got broken, in about a week I’ll turn 31 years old and things will be different because I’m finally living my life for myself and not for others.

Madi, no sé si estás leyendo mi weblog, pero gracias… Muchas gracias por hacerme ver que mi vida puede ser mejor. Gracias por decirme “Sors de ton sous-sol !” — De veras lo necesitaba. Te quiero mucho!