The first day of 2004
Posted: January 1st, 2004 | Author: Bea | Filed under: Life | 3 Comments »So, my last entry had nothing to do with best wishes for the New Year, but if you scroll a little bit down you will find one with that kind of content. Anyway, I hope everyone had a great end of 2003 and a wonderful start of this 2004… Time flies! New Year’s Eve found me trying to look into the past with a little bit of “nostalgia”, but I decided to forget about it because it was causing more pain than glory; some things are better left in the past no matter how good our intentions are… somebody always ends up getting hurt and I don’t want it to be me.
Honestly, I had a rough day, spent it feeling very blue thinking of and missing Patrice. I’ve had a really good time here, but it’s time for me to start marking up the days on the calendar because I miss home and that is Canada, where the love of my life is. As much as I’ve tried to put it aside, I’m going to start taking Prozac again because it’s been months now of feeling “abnormal”. I guess 2004 will mark the return of the “Happy Pill” to my life and this time I hope I will be smart enough to take it as I should, for the time I should.
*hugs* just remember the good…let go of the bad.
i know it’s hard to be away from hubby for so long….but in a few short days, u will be back! :)
It’s tough Bea, no one feels “normal” during this time of the year. The holidays bring happiness and cheer, but also stress and anxiety too. Personally, I enjoyed it, but I am glad it’s over and life can get routine again.
I also wanted to let you know that my web hosting expired on my site and I have decided not to renew as of now. I am taking a break for other things and limiting my Internet useage to research and school. I will still be visiting you often to catch up and want to keep in touch! Happy New Year!
Just wanted to send some smiles your way, Bea!