The clock changed last night, now the days get dark earlier and the mornings don’t happen early enough. Today I put away our summer clothes and took the sweaters and jackets out of the suitcase where they slept during the warm months so they can be of use. I have this urge to stay inside and protect myself from the darkness and the cold, cuddle with the hubby, put a fire in the fireplace, drink hot chocolate (unsweetened for me, please) and let my soul be quiet waiting for the first snow flakes to fall.
The weather here in Montreal has been miserable, the rain won’t give us a break until Tuesday and the thick layer of clouds in the sky makes me gloomy (I wish I were here), so I’m keeping myself busy while the sun shows its face again. The new toy helps me go through these grey days without going totally crazy; I made my first CD mix today with songs by Mikel Erentxun that I was saving since Carla generously sent them to me. I’m listening to it right now, dreaming about old days and reflecting on my present life.
My new work isn’t all that and I’m seriously thinking of just forgetting about it. Little pay and they didn’t even call me this week, which means I had no hours and there will be no pay check on the 31… I’m not very happy. Besides I have to be honest with myself: I’m not retailing sales material. I told Jaya the other day that I know I’m made for bigger things, not because I’m proud, but because I know I can. I want to help people, that’s what I want to do. I’m waiting for the Carrefour Emploi to call me because I want to meet a Counselor in Professional Orientation; I’m 28 years old, I have a degree in Biology, I still don’t know what I want to do when I grow up, but I have an idea.
Today I talked to my mom. She’s buying a new apartment and seems happy about it, but I have no idea how she will manage to live in one after so many years of living in big houses. I guess she doesn’t want to feel so alone in a huge house anymore and decided to close her space a little. The description of the apartment makes me believe it’s a really nice place and just a block away from my brother (she already lives close to him, but she will be closer). Everyone seems happy about the project and ready to make it work… and I’m so far away. I can’t believe I was in Colombia and I didn’t see my family, but I probably will sooner than expected… My mom is ready to pay me a plane ticket so I can FINALLY spend the holidays with them. I still have to think about her offer, quit the non-job I’ve got and move along.
And then after the winter, the family reunion and the rest of the madness, I’ll stop procrastinating and go back to school.
Hello, my name is Beatriz, I met someone who knows you here in Ottawa, she gave me your web address, I am from Colombia too. I have breaat cancer & met your friend here, when I told her my name she mentionned you, hope you don’t mind me writting, it’s not everyday that you hear of a Colombian named Beatriz in this Country!
Oh well, what a coincidence. Thanks for stopping by. Best wishes!
Bea,
I know what you mean about the light. I struggle through this time of the year. I keep reminding myself that 21 Dec WILL come and the light WILL start coming back again. Have you thought of buying one of those light therapy machines? You sit in front for a period of time and your body feels happier for getting some rays! I also think if you don’t enjoy the job, life is too short–move on! I support ya!
I’m sorry the job isn’t living up to your hopes but glad you sound so positive about. This sounds like an opportunity for you to reach for some dreams :) I love your new look, those little characters are great. Like you I want to hibernate in winter. I could happily take to my bed and set the alarm clock for march! I do enjoy the cosiness of winter, providing I don’t have to go out in the cold too often. There’s also those occasional bright, crisp days to look forward to.
Oooh, that photo be mine ;) I wish you were here, too! Come visit meeee! Someday.. and someday I’ll go there, for sure. I’m sick of this DST thing already, big ugh! Hawaii, where are you?!